Fighting Forgiveness

By: Susan Bea Good

I loved basketball!

It’s been one year since I received the letter…informing me that I had been released as basketball coach. This was two weeks after leading my Team through a winning season…tying for first place in regular play…eventually taking home the second place trophy in League Tournaments. In response to my inquiry as to why I was not being asked to return, I received another letter…this one describing my incompetence as a coach. “Why” turned to “What”…as in, What the heck?…and “Who”…Who didn’t want me back?

This was our first year back to the school after a long break…since the graduation of my third child and six years of homeschooling of my forth. I was expecting things to be much the same as before. In those days I was appreciated for my contributions towards the small, rural, non-denominational Christian School. And I appreciated this ministry…twenty years earlier it had “saved” my two oldest children, after we abruptly removed them from the Public School system.

I made an effort to find out the “Who”…but failed. Feeling rejected, we moved our daughter to a different Christian school. I tried to move on too…but grew bitter…feeling betrayed…I was not forgiving the Who!

I must testify, that God’s Spirit was speaking to my heart the entire year, telling me to wait on Him!  Wait for an explanation, wait for an apology, wait for the “I told ya so!” moment. He told me there was something going on that I didn’t need to know about…yet I wanted the answer now!

This past season I hardly watched a moment of the college basketball finals…even with Michigan in the Final Two! Normally I would have been very interested…always looking for plays, moves, and methods that I might translate to my Team. Instead, I often heard myself saying…”I hate basketball!”

Last week I was confronted with a three-part message on forgiveness. At first when I heard that word, I turned away. Finally, I relented and listened to the messages. I already knew what God expected from me on this matter…so it wasn’t necessary to hear all three messages to get the point.

When I listened and received the point, I was able to repent for the attitude I had all year… and resolved to leave the matter with God and go forward.

The next day I received a text from my church asking if I would lead the summer Basketball Camp this year…I said, “Yes…I love basketball!”

“And whenever you stand praying, forgive, if you have anything against anyone, so that your Father also who is in heaven may forgive you your trespasses.” (Mark 11:25/ESV)

The purpose of this blog is to encourage Christ-followers to see God’s Big Picture and be a part of it!
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