By: Susan Bea Good
“This is the confidence we have in approaching God: that if we ask anything according to His will, He hears us.” (I John 5:14/NIV)
For many years I was privileged with opportunities to fellowship with my seven grandsons. Fungi collecting, basement-campouts, river-making in the sandbox, playing catch over the garage roof, bike riding and chalk art in the driveway, Star Wars, Rikki Tiki Tavi, U-Tube puppy videos, and shooting baskets were some of the activities I shared with my favorite boys.
When they were toddlers they listened intently to my made up stories about “Bouncy Bunny.” The moral was always that boys should listen to and obey their parents. This is ironic as I am presently barred from direct influence upon these grandchildren due to accusations that I questioned their parents’ authority. One of my deepest desires of life was to be a godly influence on my grandchildren. My current designation as the “bad” grandma would seem to have destroyed that hope.
Because we cannot absorb all He has to give in one big dose God usually unfolds His work a little at a time. I believe He has been slow-working good through the attacks upon my grandma-status. I’m convinced now that my present “broken” position is far more valuable than the whole one I held before. The grandma who was “so, so, so, so fun” is now gone. But I am sure that God is working in ways I never imagined.
I’m realizing that there is (and always was) only one effort of lasting value that I can offer my grandsons- I can pray, asking God to do good for them…and then trust Him to do so!
I am sure that God is good…and that He is working. I’m no longer weeping over my felt-loss. Now I’m waiting- for God to finish doing what no amount of grandma-effort could ever accomplish. I’m embracing His will, even if it means that I never regain relationships with my grandsons in this life. Asking for good and choosing to trust God is the best I can give.
This blogger’s purpose is to encourage faithful Christ-followers to see God’s Big Picture and be a part of it. Adonai Eloheinu.